Lord God, I am anxious about the NCLEX. Give me peace of mind Father. Help me to see the bright side of all of this studying and failing of practice exams. It is discouraging. But I know that it is helping me even though I haven't seen the effects of it yet. Lord Jesus you are so good. I know that you are with me and delight in me completely. I know that you have helped me to wake up and study and you will keep on helping me to persevere and focus. Thank you Lord for all of the amazing people that are praying for me. Thank you for the nice couple I just met who said they would pray for me. Even people I have spoken to for only a couple seconds are praying that I pass and you put them in my life for that reason. Lord Jesus, I can feel your presence. You calm my spirit and help me to realize that all I need in life is hope and faith in You. Why worry? Why fear? When you Lord are with me and providing me with strength every day, every single morning, every single afternoon when all I want to do is take a nap, when you Lord are with me what and whom then shall I fear? You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever. I love you Lord.

Hebrews is such a wise and profound book. The writer makes connections between Jesus and the many prophesies in the OT throughout the entire book. Something I found really interesting is how the writer speaks of Jesus in likeness of Melchizedek, a High Priest. This High Priest appears in Genesis 14:18-20 as a Priest of God Most High. The reason Jesus is compared to Melchizedek is because he is not an Aaronite Priest, but is from Salem (Jerusalem) and Moses says he is a Priest of the Most High. This is what the writer of Hebrews says:
If perfection could have been attained through the Levitical priesthood (for on the basis of it the law was given to the people), why was there still need for another priest to come—one in the order of Melchizedek, not in the order of Aaron? For when there is a change of the priesthood, there must also be a change of the law. He of whom these things are said belonged to a different tribe, and no one from that tribe has ever served at the altar. For it is clear that our Lord descended from Judah, and in regard to that tribe Moses said nothing about priests. And what we have said is even more clear if another priest like Melchizedek appears, one who has become a priest not on the basis of a regulation as to his ancestry but on the basis of the power of an indestructible life. For it is declared:
"You are a priest forever,
in the order of Melchizedek."The former regulation is set aside because it was weak and useless (for the law made nothing perfect), and a better hope is introduced, by which we draw near to God. And it was not without an oath! Others became priests without any oath,but he became a priest with an oath when God said to him:
"The Lord has sworn
and will not change his mind:
'You are a priest forever.'Because of this oath, Jesus has become the guarantee of a better covenant.
Jesus is our High Priest FOREVER. He sacrificed his own Perfect Human and God self for us to that our since would be forgiven ONCE AND FOR ALL. God, it is so fun to find out more about you. Reveal yourself to me more and more, I can't get enough of it.

God you never ever leave us. God you have seen all of us. Every single unclean, sinful, rebellious, envious, pitiful side of me, yet you delight in us? You rejoice over us with singing? You are true Love Lord. You do not turn your cheek against us in disgust. No. You look us straight in our eyes every single day and tell us "You believe so you are saved through my amazing, gracious, sweet, perfect, humble Son Jesus Christ... continue hoping, believing, and walking the path of salvation, seeking my face and learning more about who I really am every day and one day you will dwell in heaven with Us. I love you always. Your sin is no longer the veil I see covering you, it is My Son I and it is so good."
Lord Jesus, Thank You. Remind me to thank you for your sacrifice every single day.

I have began reading and reflecting on the book of Isaiah recently. Man O man does this book show so much of who God is and show his fulfilled promises through His prophesy. In the first chapter God speaks about his anger, disappointment and sadness toward Judah and Jerusalem. He says " 4 They have forsaken the Lord...5 The whole head is sick... 6 There is no soundness in it, but wounds and bruises and putrifying sores. They have not been closed or bound up or soothed with ointment... (yet despite all of his anger towards His people He says) 18 Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool. If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land ; but if you refuse and rebel, you shall be devoured by the sword".

Though we constantly turn away from our Father and curse him, He does not turn away from us. The way he expresses his anger makes me flinch and want hide behind something out of disgrace and embarassment. In likeness of a disappointed human father who approaches his own children, condemning them for the poor decisions they have made, our Lord God turns to us with tears in His eyes and tells us exactly how he regards our iniquities. He is even states that His "soul hates (the iniquity and futile sacrifices". He justly despises all of what makes us fallen human beings, yet he is also full of grace. He created a way for us to be forgiven eternally. His Son willingly submitted to this supernatural plan of "offering up Himself (for all of our sins), once and for all!" (Hebrews 7:27).

Amazing.

I just signed up for the NCLEX exam, and though I am scared and nervous out of my mind, I know the Lord will be with me the next couple weeks as I study. I know He will listen to my prayers of helping me to re-learn, focus on, and retain, all the information and help me to sucessfully pass the NCLEX. Only God can help me to pass, and I know He will. He has gotten me this far. I know He desires me to be a nurse. Through being a nurse I can pray for the patients I have and perhaps plant Gospel seeds in some of them through Gods power. He is good. I will praise You Lord Jesus every day. Help my unbelief Lord! and help me to completely, and sincerely follow you.