So since the about me section of the profile is way too short (or I just talk too much) here is a quick overview of me. I am 23 years old, married and love my Mitch SO very much. I have been blessed with a family who is loving, supportive and always there for me. I have 3 siblings (bro Samir in China, Sis Priya in Colorado, and baby Lily (linger blinger) in Birmingham n high school). My dad is Indian (Dot type, not feather) and my mom is British from England.
I grew up as a Christian, going to church Sundays and praying occasionally (though we never said grace). Yet, I wasn't introduced to the Truth of having a relationship with Jesus until middle school through Matt Hook, the Youth Pastor. In an attempt to try this relationship thing, I began reading my bible and praying to God. Yet, that dwindled pretty quick once I got to high school and became caught up more in fitting in, and set God aside so that I could focus on my vanity idol and attempt to deal with the anxiety that came with it. Along with all of this, I began dating Mitch when I was 16. It was wonderful, but very physical, which ultimately pulled both of us further and further away from God. After a horrible, depression filled 6 months of neediness following the decision that I was old enough to have sex, Mitch came to me and told me that he thought it would be a good idea for us to stop doing the thing that was damaging our relationship as well as our souls. Thus, we abstained until we wed. Best decision ever. God opened Mitch's ears to this huge issue, and through that act, turned my head towards Himself, though at the time it was only the slightest bit. As the next 3 years went by slowly but surely God turned both of our heads more and more. And He continues to do so still today. I would say on my relationship continuum with God, I have now maybe reached my first birthday. What I mean by that is that I am more than conscious that I have far more growing to do with God, through God and for God. There are struggles, insecurities, thoughts on life that I will write about eventually to fill in the holes of this testimony. But despite the briefness of this account, at least this is a glimpse of the life I have lead and the life I intend to lead with God as my direction, strength, comfort, hope.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
So here is a quote that I heard on one of the many Christian television channels (I guess the preacher saw this on a bumper sticker) : Being religious is natural, but being a Christian is supernatural.
When I heard that I reflected on it for a long time. Some questions came to mind. Have I ever gotten caught up on being religious over being a true Christian? Do I depend on God guiding on my christian walk Christian or do I depend on my own human strength to just be plain old religious?
These questions were really rhetorical ones since I already knew the answers. I have gotten caught up in being religious over a true Christian and I too often depend on myself to walk what I see as the Christian walk. It is sad, but true, and something I need to pray about frequently.
Lord God, I desire to depend fully on your strength, your supernatural, all powerful strength to lead me on the path that you have for me. I pray that I will wake up every morning with my thoughts turning toward my dependence on you and the fact that you will help me get me through anything that comes my way that day, rather than taking it upon myself to muster my human strength to tackle the day. I don't want to just be seen as a religious person anymore. No. That comes far too naturally. Someone who worships the devil can be considered religious. I want people who see me, know me, interact with me to know without a doubt that it is not my strength and will that drives me on my path towards the Light, but it is you Lord.
This Blog marks the beginning of another season in my life. I have realized that there are far too many thoughts and ideas that come to my mind daily that it was time to begin writing them down. I figure that by writing down my thoughts it provides me with an opportunity for deeper reflection on how these thoughts relate to God and how I can learn from them. It is also a way for me to recognize topics in my life and others' life that need prayer. Please feel free to comment and pray with me. Hopefully, something I say will pertain to you. Whether I help you to realize that you aren't the only one with that problem or sin, or whether you get to reflect on something perhaps you have never considered before... at least this blog may help someone else besides myself. I'll leave that part up to God miraculous ways of working. Either way, I am excited to be vulnerable with myself, with whoever is reading and with God.
When I heard that I reflected on it for a long time. Some questions came to mind. Have I ever gotten caught up on being religious over being a true Christian? Do I depend on God guiding on my christian walk Christian or do I depend on my own human strength to just be plain old religious?
These questions were really rhetorical ones since I already knew the answers. I have gotten caught up in being religious over a true Christian and I too often depend on myself to walk what I see as the Christian walk. It is sad, but true, and something I need to pray about frequently.
Lord God, I desire to depend fully on your strength, your supernatural, all powerful strength to lead me on the path that you have for me. I pray that I will wake up every morning with my thoughts turning toward my dependence on you and the fact that you will help me get me through anything that comes my way that day, rather than taking it upon myself to muster my human strength to tackle the day. I don't want to just be seen as a religious person anymore. No. That comes far too naturally. Someone who worships the devil can be considered religious. I want people who see me, know me, interact with me to know without a doubt that it is not my strength and will that drives me on my path towards the Light, but it is you Lord.
This Blog marks the beginning of another season in my life. I have realized that there are far too many thoughts and ideas that come to my mind daily that it was time to begin writing them down. I figure that by writing down my thoughts it provides me with an opportunity for deeper reflection on how these thoughts relate to God and how I can learn from them. It is also a way for me to recognize topics in my life and others' life that need prayer. Please feel free to comment and pray with me. Hopefully, something I say will pertain to you. Whether I help you to realize that you aren't the only one with that problem or sin, or whether you get to reflect on something perhaps you have never considered before... at least this blog may help someone else besides myself. I'll leave that part up to God miraculous ways of working. Either way, I am excited to be vulnerable with myself, with whoever is reading and with God.
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